Real demonic possession
Real Demonic Possession - Rare Account
I was about 4 to 6 years old, I’m not entirely sure. My mum refuses to remember the events fully. “You experienced a very high temperature and it only lasted an hour or so” she says, and then changes the subject. It actually lasted a few days & one part was so intense I cannot explain it with any other words other than I saw the devil. My aim in this account is not to try to convince you of the reality of my experience, but just to document it, as I feel, now at 24, it is a very strange and important part of my life that has just been disregarded and brushed under the carpet like it never happened. It was so unique I had to write everything down in the hope that someone will read who has had a similar experience or further information.
I say it was unique, kind of makes it sound like something I enjoyed. This is very far from the truth. It was the most terrifying thing that has ever happened to me. I have tried only a couple of times to re-induce the state but got so scared when it began again. I just can’t follow through with it for fear of the consequences. If it were to occur again and never left I would hate to have willed my soul to an eternity of intense, unequivocal torment.
At 5-7 years old with no religious upbringing with no real care for the Devil, God, Hell or Heaven, with nothing special really about me, no religious ancestors, no connections to the occult in my family. I do wonder why it happened to me. I do have a cousin who has spent her whole life in a mental institution, but, I am not crazy and have never suffered with any mental illness.
I would have thought perhaps, what I saw would have been an image I had experienced through books or TV. Nope it was certainly not a corny devil picture that I saw, It was much worse and I can only describe who I encountered as being the devil; not just a bad spirit, Ultimate evil. Ultimate power..
I am a bright young man. I have a business; I achieved 8 As at Gcse level. I say this because I want you to know I have explored all intelligent avenues as what this could have been. Just a high temperature that lead to hallucinations perhaps..? My brain may have been scrambled by the heat, about 106 I think it reached, however what caused that rise in temperature is unknown. The very makings of my brain allowed the possibilities for everything I experienced and saw. Not just moving full on hallucinations and sounds but a change of time and space. - Extremely complicated concepts that a little kid couldn’t possibly create with his imagination.
Whatever the cause, be it the heat, or something darker. The state I was, or my mind was in, could have been a gateway for possession by the spirit.
I was in another dimension. The experience on the whole was like a very long, terrifying process of changing dimensions, reality and all physics were vanishing, being replaced by strange hallucinations that questioned time and space.
I was completely powerless to the effect of the experience. I couldn’t stop it I just had to endure it and pray and pray that it would stop. Thankfully, I didn’t do anything dangerous when my mind was fully taken over and cut off from the outside world of worried relatives and doctors.
If you have ever taken mushrooms, strong mushrooms and tripped out. You will understand how your mind can change. Imagine eating 1000 mushrooms leading to the worst trip you could have and you can’t escape.
The experience hasn’t affected me in anyway. I am definitely far from evil. I have never done any devil worship or black magic or anything weird like that. I was never obsessed with ghosts or evil. I do wonder why it happened to me. I see so many people dressed as ‘goths’ and surely this sort of thing would be more appropriate to happen to somebody who believes & welcomes the dark side, or enjoys dabbling in or worshiping it..
I had a fever, sweating, head spinning, room swaying just from that. I remember my mum kept taking my temperature...and now I think of it, she always took my temperature every time I was ill after that. I’m not surprised. I remember the room filling with little dots.. like seeing all the atoms of air about me, like many swarms of bees, moving in the way birds or fishes move together and then remaining in their own spaces but vibrating larger and smaller, nearer and further. Then I saw one spot. One atom in the middle of the room that seemed as far away as a star in the sky but I could see it right in front of my eyes.
This is very difficult to explain but I will try as best I can. The walls in the room seemed so far away, as all focus was on the atom which too, was miles and miles away but I could see it, dominating my view and mind. Like a never ending hall completely white, but you couldn’t make out where the wall started and the floor or ceiling ended. Time and space had been completely changed. No longer did I have any control over thoughts or actions, and reality was now a living nightmare with an unpredictable future. All I could do was watch what was happening.
Atoms that were microscopic could be seen and everything else became very distant. As if my vision was strong enough to see the moon in the palm of my hand. There was no way to stop the hallucinations, as real as reality and even more insane than any dream. I remember sinking into my bed, the ceiling miles away.
The atoms became more intense, vibrating, and I was getting more frightened and more distant from actual reality. All the atoms collected into a shape. No other words to describe it but a massive whale, in front of my eyes life-size, fitting into my small room. A life-size whale in my room, just swimming.
Then it was all interrupted, I must have screamed for my mum and I remember that as being the last hallucination in my room. I was then taken into my mum’s room. Where I had a sick bucket and I was throwing up continuously. This is where things took a turn for the worse.
Time and space were just as inconceivable but this time there was just one atom, alone, like one tiny raindrop in the middle of the room. The size of an atom relative to the room but I could see it. It was all I could focus on as the walls were millions of miles away yet, also, right where they were. The room began filling with orange smoke, bellowing orange smoke surrounding everything, just appearing and engulfing the room, with a darker more intense area building and swilring/moving in front of me in the far right corner of the room. The intense area of fiery smoke had no face, no body, but I could tell it had a spirit and soon enough it revealed itself to me by voice.
The intenseness of the smoke and vibration began transforming into sound.. shouting, shouting at me, in my head. The loudest noise, the most violent noise, to ever be heard.. unbearable.. The deepest, loudest voice you could hear. If I could have seen myself I was probably holding my head swaying and screaming. It was truley awful. Shouting constantly pounding throughout every cell of my brain. Commanding. I can’t remember any of the words, even if they were words. I wish I could. I just remember the power and sound of the voice. My internal narration/thoughts/anything in my mind was completely taken over by this banging, booming voice shouting at me, as all i could see was the intense orange and black smoke all around.
I could sense the intent of the voice as the strongest of either, or all; a command, a warning, a threat, or just pure torment, and evil.
I was just a little kid and I was sweating and screaming and my mum didn’t know what to do. I was sitting on her bed, I was told, with my eyes rolling around my head screaming “help me I’m downstairs” and other absolute ‘rubbish’ according to her. The doctors said I was delirious, resulting from a high temperature. That must have been the assumption on day 1, because day 2 or 3 they suggested the only thing that could be done was to call an exorcist. No wonder my mum represses the memories. Imagine you saw your child with their eyes spinning round their head, sweating and uttering rubbish and screaming for help. Thankfully, it all passed slowly after the devil hallucination.
As you can imagine remembering all the things that happened is impossible but I have recounted the most intense things I can remember. I have always remembered them. As it was a hell of an ordeal for any kid to experience. I am glad it passed and didn’t result in the spirit commanding me to do something dangerous. How far from actual reality I was and how fully engulfed in his presence and intent I was, I could have been controlled to do anything without even knowing it if it had persisted.
I am sure this hallucination experience happened a couple of times when I was younger, the time above being the most severe and memorable for everyone. I do remember inducing it once or twice. I couldn’t tell you if the time mentioned above was the result of this induction – it probably was because I doubt I would have tried it again after that.
I was in the car and my mum was driving on about an hour’s journey. I was squinting at the traffic lights and street lights/motorway lights as they passed. I was very tired, I’m not sure if I was ill or not at that point. My eyes were just open enough to make the lights stretch into long lines of colours that kept passing by- enjoying the way that made the colours and lights changed and move around- Maybe inducing some sort of hypnotic trance. I have no idea why it worked, but this allowed the changing of dimensions and the seeing of atoms as my consciousness slowly disappeared into this new reality while awake. This state took a hold of me for days slowly getting more intense, and it is not recommended for anybody to endure what I did.
I tried to induce this again, recently. (I tried before at about 17 years old and fell asleep and dreamt it, waking up sweating.) Whilst planning to document this account a month or 2 ago I decided to try again: I was next to my girlfriend in bed and she had just gone to sleep. I was squinting at some light, as I did as a kid, but it was stationary, and eventually my eyes just shut. I just tried to remember the atom and the walls being miles and miles away, half asleep, just trying to remember the state of mind I was in and use vivid imagery from memory, to relive the experience until it happened. Looking at the imaginary atom in front of me in my mind and letting the walls slide further and further away, it took ages and I was almost completely asleep, when suddenly, in a split second, the atoms formulated all at once into a huge dark green and grey demon dragon, flying, zigzagging, out of the darkness towards my face. I jumped out of my skin and gasped very loudly as I awoke, waking my girlfriend. Won’t be trying that again anytime soon.
Another thing I noticed when planning to write this. Not that I want to believe in it, but my mum’s birthday is the 12/12/1960... In 2012 the world is predicted to end by some nutters somewhere, but it’s quite strange how the 12/12/12 will be the last date possible in that formation. There will be no 13/13/13 as there are only 12 months. Very odd me thinks.
If anyone reading this has had similar experiences or knows anything about this or just fancies a chat I would love to hear from you. contact me at: